Syeda Nazea Amin Faheem– Yani Main..

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My daddy was a millionaire businessman & CEO of an Afghan company, he was a C.A, a mathematician, we had a huge office in our house & I recall him auditing for consecutive days at end, exporters, shipping and all kinds of people visited his grand sanctuary, he ran few diverse businesses like my brother had a terry towel & sports goods factory, he had a marble & textile factory, he was a wonderful giver, so I know what being raised as an arrogant brattish me 1st kind of child is like being, rigorously pampered, well-read, well-travelled, well-educated and yet spoilt to the core as we all were, me being the youngest of all siblings and my name being Nazea= Naz karnay wali (never liked this proud kind of name & tried changing it to Nisa as well But….) Somehow at the age of 17, I decided to put myself through a grinding process in order to shape up my very mercuric personality, and I started out by doing some short courses of my interest and later on as an intern at a multinational firm in the Marketing dept., during the 1st ITCN ASIA event I was with Netsol I.R, Xenon solutions, NCR & Americom Technologies, I had trained PIA & Indus TV call centre agents and my next internship was at the ABN AMRO & Standard chartered banks again in the marketing depts.

I had laid my foundation but we are what we shape up as a child, there was a lot of reconstruction to be done, I had just finished my O’s & A’s in all three boards, Oxford, Cambridge & London and in all 3 majors, Arts, Commerce & Science, I had been sent for education to a co-ed Canadian school, I had passion & drive all along BUT was not sure what I wanted to pursue as am not very ambitious, nor did I have the need for money ever. I never attended college or university (except to appear for my B.A & M.A examinations, meanwhile I did a bundle of short courses, trainings & 2 years of APTECH as all my friends were becoming tech savvy in the Y2K days.) I have a flair for writing, so I always wrote in the Dawn news, Young World section, I tried my hand as an editor in SHE, Women’s Own, Good Food magazines and later as a blogger. From the Marriot hotel, Al Nahyan, Etisalat, Standard Chartered, EMAAR, Damac Web-bookers, Fast business services, my portfolio reeks of the Middle East, for I set foot in that domain since 2008 & relocated in 2012-2016. Still figuring things out having worked with the UAE government & royalties, Saudi, Kuwaiti Royals, Pakistani Ministries, and Govt. Of course not forgetting the current President of USA, I have an illustrious list of my corporate endeavours along with luminous interactions, alhamdullilah, Allah swt has been extremely kind and life has been rewarding.

But like a filmy baby, I have some keeray which have stayed in me since forever and sometimes I nurture them as that is my actual calling & passion, so I do keep my media related work side by side my 9 to 5 alternatives, I have been a live Tv show host on Indus Vision, an R.J on 105 & 107 FM, I have been a trained theatre actor by the likes of Mr. Zia Mohayeuddin, Rahat Kazmi, Talat Husssain sab to name a few at NAPA institute and recently did Acting, Directing & Script writing workshops in New York Film Academy, I have been with the Karafilm Festival since 2004-2007 having worked with Hasan Zaidi, infact I even quit my job with Fakhar e Alam in Client Servicing to volunteer at Kara to meet my favourite actor, Pooja Bhatt, I am eccentric that way. I was with Zoheb Hassan during the last Face of the Year contest as Marketing Manager & adored me for obvious reasons (my name being Nazea, named after his sister & legend the late Nazia Hassan), I have worked in theatre with Shah Shahrabeel on Bombay Dreams, Hazaar Dastaan during SABZ. List of work goes on endlessly as I have modelled for the best, Wafa Khan at the Academy of Aesthetics, Sameera Abid at A Square & Esmod Institute in Dubai, Plitz & Chelsea in New York as a plus size model, I just did some workshops in Chelsea & with Mario (Kim Kardashian’s makeup artist) as well in New York.

I have been with the Ministry of events, Muse & eMatterz in UAE for various Indian film projects & promotions. Working with the superstars Mr. Shahrukh Khan with Red Chillies Productions was an ultimate experience and I learnt a lot, with Mr. Salman Khan during the Being Human brand launch at MOE was a delight as well, I have represented Pakistan on various platforms in my limited time and capacity as & wherever possible being active on global cultural forums and an ardent member & participant of many firms, groups and teams that give me accessibility to avail such opportunities.

I have been a guest speaker at the Youth & Social Affairs Ministry, worked with Young Social Reformers as Director Marketing during their Tipping Point event, actively worked on donor campaigns for the Kiran Vocational Centre, and my own I-Marketeer workshop called Incarnate, which is primarily about personality development, been a speaker for Entrepreneurship at KASBIT University, speaker for Marketing at IQRA University IBA University, trainer at the NCR  Netsol Technologies ITCN ASIA  Avaya ITCN ASIA  PIA Call Centre  UFONE Etisalat International Gulf Group (UAE) BULLDOG TRG (KHI) EMAAR Pakistan.

My few Membership include, ITCN ASIA (E-Commerce Gateway 2000-2002) Canadian Business Council (UAE) Pakistan Business Council (UAE) Youth Advocacy Network Young Social Reformers EPB SMEDA Arts Council KUJ Youth Parliament Sindh Youth to end Sexual Violence (Blogger) Participatory Youth Development Network Pakistan Association for Young Leaders Development & Training Organization. Recently I have been associated with Project Heads at the Silicon Valley, Cisco & Amazon in the USA.

My few certifications of approx.40 are as few, Creative Writing Craft of Plot in which I scored a 100% from Wesleyan University, Leadership & skills from Michigan University, Self-Development According to Iqbal Magh e Deen, Airline Ticketing from Grace, Flight Services from Airline Learning Centre, Sales & Client Relations U.K based training, accent reduction, 4 C’s of Customer services, Sales Banking Policies & Procedures, Train the Trainer.

I did my Business Communication from IBA university to fight my fear of public speaking and giving presentations while standing in front of a huge audience, I am an awardee from the Oxford University for my writing work I won their competition, I had to do my Pre-MBA from Middlesex U.K as my 2 year B.A wasn’t acceptable for further studies, I still have a desire to complete my MBA from a local university, as I feel I am missing that degree, just for my satisfaction.

My film & TV work, Happy New Year, Washington, Chambeli, Ho Mann Jahan, Rangreza, Sehra main Safar, Who Kia Hai?, Thoda sa Asman, Bhatti aur DD, Astrology with Haris Azmi, Chatpatti Mohabbat, never have I once been paid less than a spot boy’s daily wages, never have I once been humiliated for money Alhamdullilah, I have worked as an usher, an extra & FOC out of passion but the way things are done in my own country, is sad, really sad.

Today I have an all-star Linkedin profile, I am a sole owner of my Lifestyle & Marketing consultancy, I work on projects with USA, UAE & PK govt. I feel I am very rooted after such dynamic capacity development, I have earned inner growth, clarity, humility, and I have my principles, experiences and ethics to stand true to myself, yet I am not there yet, I would like to ask a question to those people who belittle you on grounds of their limited perspectives, short term achievements and gigantic egos, WHO ARE YOU???
I have been nice to undeserving people out of sheer fear of Allah swt, I have tried to stay alive in my search for depth in life and broaden my views about sufficiency and success, and what it means to me today, I am on a different journey and my path is differed from those who have a Firauniyat mindset, I would like to share my really short lived life through few of my professional achievements and my soul profile, in order for such entities to at least pay me worth my calibre, pay me on time, pay me or ask me to work without money, BUT do not belittle my ambition, passion and my zeal in order to please your bruised egos, Mera kaam meri poonji bhi hai, mera kirdaar bhi aur mera sarmaya bhi hai, I shall not allow fickle low lives to have me short-sell my treasure because I am made of my experiences, which cannot be stolen.
Saudaayee ka sauda nahi kiya jaata.

Syeda Nazea Amin Faheem … Yaani main ……………………!!!

Kahan tum chalay gaye ..


Allah swt knows us best.. He knew I am in need of two sets of parents, so I was blessed with two. . I have already written a lot about mommy, so in this blessed month, I have garnered some courage to speak of those last few days I have the privilege of spending with her, and also some tit bits about fathers as it is the month of Ramdan and month of fathers as well. She was with me in UAE for the last 3 months before she returned unwillingly back home on 30th November, and the same night she got sick enough to be taken to AKUH E.R, I took the 1st available flight and headed straight to the hospital around 4:00 a.m 2nd Dec 2015 (UAE National day), as usual mum was being all witty lying in the E.R bed, all smiles that am back with her, she was cluelessly clued in to my turmoil the past 24hours I had been through since she had left me alone at the merciless hands of people she thought she could entrust my future in the hands of.. anyhow since she was a diabetic, heart patient living on a pacemaker since 2008 almost, she had all sorts of illnesses mentionable and her hearing issue as well, yet she would probably be the most fun and lively person in the Special Care Unit room or any kind of emergency ward, she would mock other patients, and joke with the nurses, always precise about her hygiene and appearance, yep.. I even applied face mask to her after a head wash a few days prior to her demise, she was epic in every sense. A small blister turned into a life threat thanks to the corrupt doctors/butchers at the darn hospital/slaughterhouse, nonetheless I raised my voice as and how I possibly could, I was anyway awake for almost 5 consecutive days, their bloody negliengince sent her to the SCU (to milk more bills and to almost kill her with extremely high heart rate, still my mommy only said Jo ALLAH swt ki marzi, and all she wanted was to leave that space and head back to her room, as the dying people around her were upsetting her, eventually after 11 days almost, I decided to bring her home, if she had to go she must go from her own house, not from a hospital bed, I felt. Anyway, we had two nurses and endless medication for her at home for a few weeks, I didn’t know what sleep meant, in between sheet changes, oxygen support, 24/7 alert and her bandage changes, we did play ludo in between and watch some movies (she would call my name at odd hours, while the nurses slept.. Nazo .. Nazo.. and all she wanted to assure was that, I was there, such an attention seeker.) Mommy had told me that she was going to go a day before, on Thursday, apparently she had recited her kalma, surah fatiha, we did allah hu wird together, and all she was concerned about was me.. how was I going to be.. we had seen my mother’s funeral together at Malir on 5th Rabbi ul Awwal 2011, after which I even burnt myself with boiling water, and never attended the chelum, we saw daddy’s departure on 18th Ramzan 2002, I underwent 2 years of post depression headaches and their treatment later on, I got him admitted at the hospital and without much turmoil he passed away within a few hours of coming home, mommy.. today the 5th of ramzan.. my father is his last days.. I miss you, I don’t like hospitals, I don’t like people telling me that, I am going .. don’t cry, it breaks my heart, I don’t like reacting in front of other people, I don’t like watching people go. Mommy, I need you. . your nurse said she hadn’t seen anyone like me in her 9year career, someone who did not leave the bed for 30 days, did not leave my mother’s side for a blink, I was fired by Damac on the 7th Dec 2015 (my daddy’s birthday), the least of my concern, but was a big deal though yeah?.. she said you have lost everything and you are here.. I said mom is my everything, I am here for my everything.

 I recite Quran for you, I wash your place, clean it myself, I do what I know how to do, prayers for you, Umrah for you, I give what I am capable of giving for you, yet you do not talk to me.. WHY ?? no dreams, no presence.. why ?? don’t I do enough? Don’t you like what I do? Don’t u see I need you…… I do know 1 thing.. I have sent you happy with me.. that is my only achievement in this lifetime !! I do not love another being like I love you.. I have a tiny heart and I am tired of burying my parents.. there are two sides of having two sets, the most luv and the most pain of loss.

 These days aulad is the biggest aazmaish, parents have become a burden and I feel heartbroken.. the VALUE of a parent has become in accordance to their wealth, I am so sad, that we do not have any worth for this blessing in our life. Please soften your hearts and have some fear of ALLAH swt.

Ask me… I have lost both my mothers, my father, my child, my husband… I am on the verge of losing my father again today.. this is LIFE .. and life is shorter than we imagine..